Another French Dinner Party

Saturday was a real rough day... Just the whole weekend had mounted into one big confusion of emotions. My birthday and Thanksgivng were getting closer and closer. I felt like the more attention that was put on it the more I wanted to skip it! It made me miss my family like no other and I would just want to cry... Saturday evening I spent a large amount of time crying but I was discovered by some of the kids even though I was trying to bury my tear-stained, make-up smeared, puffy-eyed face in my pillow pretending I was sleeping but it didn't work out so well...

They told the adults. I was thoroughly embarrassed... I don't like crying in front of people... And Pascaline just came into my dark room and was talking to me. She knows there are just times that are hard. She is so sweet! We can't understand each other all the time but to love her like my mom doesn't always need to be communicated. I know she cares about me :) She gave me a big hug and encouraged me to go to the dinner party and I'm really glad she did or I would have cried even more that night bundled up in my dark room...

She even said I could call my family. My Skype microphone hadn't been working so we hadn't been able to really talk to each other for too long. They were at the Gilbert Temple Breaking Ceremony but I caught them right before it was about to start. It did make me feel a better :) It was my hardest day by far. Anytime I had a bad day I would always talk and hang out with my mom and family. I can't really do that especially since the fact that this bad day was caused by missing my family so if I was with my family I wouldn't have had this problem in the first place.

So I wiped off the mascara off my face, changed at lightning speed, and made myself presentable. We drove to the dinner. The same couple had been over to our house a few days before. They work with Nicolas or something like that. The guy was so crazy! He was in the kitchen cooking (that I didn't understand cuz he was the guest), throwing down some English, and the most hilarious... singing! Just this loud "Ahh daaaddaaa duhhh" so I knew I was in for an interesting night again.

There was homemade pizza (They had a brick pizza oven! So legit!) for appetizers... I had like 3 squares and I kept getting offered more but I was practically full and dinner hadn't even started! He was singing again :) The couple's daughter and her 3 kids were there as well.

For the actual dinner, we had raclette which is the melted cheese thing that Jeremy had gotten in Paris. You eat it with different thinly sliced hams and meats and then potatoes. It was so good but I was so stuffed by the end! I had Tropizian cake for dessert but I couldn't finish it. I was so stuffed! I thought French were supposed to have tiny portions but that night like many other dinner parties I was so stuffed. If you just stop, it seems rude so I get conflicted! After we had some dried fruit and later some chcocolate...

As we were getting up from the table, Nicolas was trying to ask me "Are you thirsty?" and it came out "Are you thirty?"... My reponse "No actually I'm 17!" Haha I almost died laughing!!!

Their daughter was smoking almost the entire night... In the house... In front of her kids and guests... I thought it was rather rude! It's her vice but I think she should have been a little more respectful of others... I counted like 6 cigarettes total that night!

Nicolas was driving crazy on the way back! He would go kinda fast over the bumps and he was like "I like zeh bumps!" Haha his English was quite entertaining that night!

Once I got back, I skyped my mom. She made me feel a lot better but the thing I always just really want is to be with her :/ Later I skyped Lane and Linds... That didn't turn out so well... We kinda got into a little tiff... I dont' want to say what exactly about ... I stared crying more and more... So I skyped my mom again for a while. I had the biggest headache by the end of it and I couldn't even manage to get up to brush my teeth or wash my face after. I just fell asleep right there... I woke up at like 6 am and did all that stuff. My eyes were so puffy. My eyelids were like 3 times thicker than normal. I am not a very pretty cry-er...